One of my best friends are dying.
I noticed when someone is dying. others look to that person for comfort
"I'm OK, I had a good life."
Why can't that person say "Fuck this, I'm scared as shit! Fuck I don't want to go yet?
I may be that person. I don't want to go yet.
She's my age and about to go.
She's not fucking ready. She has a son to raise, They are the closest people I know. Can she really just say "It's cool."
I know I'm not her best friend but who is she talking to? Who is she telling how fucking scared she is for her son? Her afterlife? Her pain?
I'm so sorry. I think about what I will say when I call and it sounds so pathetic. "I am so sorry."
Well........that'll help with me fucking dying of cancer.........no.
It sounds so stupid.
"I'm so sorry."
So then I don't say anything,
When my mom died I had the stupidest shit said to me.
"My favorite aunt died, I totally understand." .............yea no you don't.
After I lost my adopted son I shit you not, I had a friend say she had to put a dog up for adoption....;like it was the same thing.....no fucking seriously.....
I have this friend dying and I don't know how to say anything that makes sense. "You changed me. I helped you, you helped me, we were partners, I loved you as family."
I am looking to her to make me feel better.... Selfish bitches. Her mom wept on the phone putting her in an ambulance.
I keep thinking it's not totally real.
What the hell are we doing here?
I'm coming, but what do I say to you?
What would I want someone to say to me?
"Fuck Laura, Oh my God I will miss you."
Yea...... Oh my God Laura I will miss you.
Maybe that is real?
